Obsession: the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire; a persistent idea or impulse that continually forces it's way into consciousness, often associated with anxiety and mental illness.
Compulsion: a strong, usually irresistible impulse to perform an act, especially one that is irrational or contrary to one's will.
In addition to the things mentioned in reply to Mistress' blog, i do have a tendency towards this kind of behavior. It presents itself in small ways for the most part. But it always presents itself with a knowledge that there is no in between. It is either done or it isn't. (Is there such a thing as controllable OCD - because that would be closer to the truth). Here is an example:
When i decide to get in shape, lose weight, gain muscle ... i do it. It becomes a single minded determination. My life begins to revolve around it to a certain extent. In between does not work for me. It gets me noplace.
When it becomes an obsession, it works.
Now, and here is where i am sure i am not clinically an OCD individual ... If i put it down, it is down. No need to think about it, desire it, worry about it. In fact, in some cases, i prefer to go the opposite direction in full stride. Why? Actually ... Not a clue. Variance? Variety? Dunno.
i pursue wholely. i do fully. i explore completely. With an obsessive pursuit.
So is this OCD? Not sure. Maybe a version. Would i change it? Not at all.
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