The aha moment

So it occurred to me today, with a comment Mistress made, how very different this relationship is from what i originally set out looking for and how different from anything i had experienced in the past in the D/s world. Before i go on, i must say, the different is so much better. 

When showing Mistress a picture of my new adornment for Her penis, i asked if it pleased Her. Proud of this kinky act and piece of jewelry buried in my most sensitive of places. Mistress responded, you please Me My sweet. There was an odd aha moment there ... i wanted that, needed that response. Was i indulging in a kinky act? Yes. Do i look forward to more with my Mistress? Absolutely. But it wasn't the act that made it pleasurable. It was the fact that i was pleasing Mistress. Yes i am used to and desire the act of pleasing. But this time, with Mistress Manda is so very different. Why?  Because i truly love Her. Adore Her.  Would do anything for Her nod of approval, kinky or not. 

That was the aha moment. The other D/s relationships were primarily about the kink. The control and the domination. But when i find myself desiring to curl up and watch movies with Mistress, to be in a Her presence and hear Her laugh and see Her eyes glimmer ... Well ... It surely is something more. 

i LOVE my Mistress. The kink, if/when/as it comes ... Is somehow just a tangent to the bigger picture. Thank you Mistress for showing me so much more in such a short period of time knowing You. You have my heart, which is hard to get.