Earliest sexual memories

When i was a young boy, my first introduction to anything sexual was national geographic magazine. i remember the images vividly. African women, sagging breasts, large hoop earrings, simple but ornate rings all the way up their necks. And my father saying - it's just national geographic, to my mother. 

When I was 10, the first real "wow, now that's a woman and that means something" moment was seeing a picture of Sophia Loren - whom I still have the hots for even at her prime older age - in a bathing suit. Learning, years later, that she bore a striking resemblance to my mother as a young woman ... But i digress. 

Seeing her, in voluptuous, real woman beauty ... I realized how amazing the female body was. The first time cum came out of my young manhood was while staring at a picture of Sophia. i thought i had broken myself - ha. 

my fantasies shortly thereafter became very defined ... And will probably come as little surprise to Mistress ... Even at a very young age, I always knew ... Sexually, i was submissive. my fantasies were wrapped around being taken, kidnapped even, by a dominant, older woman or women. Being locked away. Kept. Held. Owned. For their pleasure. Used as they saw fit. 

While I no doubt fantasized about other things, these were the fantasies that stuck in my young head. 

Now, 30 some years later, though having experienced the pleasure of submission, i feel like, for the first time, i am truly experiencing it for the first time. Being owned. Belonging to. And it is much more then pre-pubescent fantasized thoughts. It is real. And powerful. And fulfilling. 

Thank you Mistress. For making my fantasy better in reality.